11. an official comeback,
hi,
apologies on my behalf, i literally ghosted you for around 2 months and i couldn’t be more sorry. i hope you didn’t miss me too much, but now i am back, not officially because some new changes are gonna be applied which i will explain later on.
the last time we spoke i was on my way back to Finland after my holiday in Italy. while i was in Helsinki, outside the hanging out with friends, most of the time back was pretty boring and uneventful. my partner and i were selling and buying furniture that we owned for our future move to a new apartment (for which still haven’t received an offer and tbh feeling kinda pissed about it but let’s move forward) or hanging out in front of the tv playing videogames. it was back to a life where i felt weirdly stressed and unmotivated to the point that the idea of writing to you every week felt heavy. so i decided to take a break, recollect myself and enjoy my last few months before starting uni.
after the month in Finland, we drove back to hamburg for a couple of weeks. while driving we stopped in between places. we started in Turku, we had an overnight ferry, had a full day in Stockholm, drove 6 hours to Malmö, took another ferry to Germany that felt forever and finally arrived in hamburg at around 2am.
while being back, i had to brush off my german again and the pressure and fear of speaking it came back to life. german is still a challenge and even though i lived speaking it for three years my lack of confidence towards it still pushes me down.
nonetheless Germany, especially hamburg, will always have a place in my heart, every time i forget how the city itself is so beautiful so going back always brings back great feelings and memories. while we were there we rediscovered different places and one of them was doing a small tour back to the neighbourhood where we used to live. we stopped at our favourite kebab place, which changed owner and name but luckily still tastes the same, went to our local supermarket even if we didn’t have to buy anything and also in our local bank because we forgot that we needed cash to buy the kebab (tip: if you ever travel to Germany you MUST bring cash), we even from a far, but not into a creepy way i promise, checked the windows of the apartment that we used to live in. it was an overall precious moment and funny because we kept on commenting on how every corner of that neighbourhood was iconic but in reality is far from it.
now i am back and feeling better of the idea of talking to you again, i have a lot of ideas and i am excited to catch up and taking you around my stories and thoughts of the moment. however this time will be slightly different, i decided that i will write you more spontaneously, it won’t be on Mondays anymore and maybe it won’t be every week. sometimes it could happen that i will write you 4 times a month but sometimes maybe less or more. uni has officially started for me and i am not sure how busy i will be, also of the past pressure of keeping up with these letter made me feel the need of this change. i hope you understand!
it was nice seeing you again,
i hope you have been well,
and enjoyed an amazing summer break,
because you deserve it,
N 🧚